By Pat Anson

Kathleen Haynes knows all about the physical and emotional pain that comes from adhesive arachnoiditis (AA), a progressive spinal disorder that causes severe intractable pain.  

She’s had AA for 50 years, after an oily contrast dye used for a myelogram imaging test was injected into her spinal column. The invasive test turned a simple back injury into a living nightmare, with the nerves in her lower spine becoming inflamed and sticking together.

“That oil stayed in my spinal column, surrounded my spinal nerves, and that’s why my nerves clumped together,” Haynes said. “And it just got worse and worse and worse, to the point where I use a wheelchair to get around.”

At the young age of 70, Haines is now pursuing a doctorate degree in Psychology at Walden University. For her dissertation, she’s doing a study about suicide ideation in AA patients. In the past, Haynes had suicidal thoughts herself.

“The pain was just unbearable. And not being believed that I was in pain and not getting the right medication,” she told PNN.

“One of the things that was a deciding factor in doing this study was because I belong to a couple of AA groups on Facebook. And I was struck by the amount of people who go on there and say they're suicidal or say can you please lead me to somebody who does euthanasia?”  

Haines’ goal is to interview 10 people with AA in the next few weeks who are not currently having suicidal thoughts, but are willing to talk about them. To protect their privacy, participants will be assigned numbers and their real names will not be used. A list of other conditions and sample questions can be found here, along with Haynes’ contact information.  

It’s not the just the pain that makes AA patients suicidal, according to Haynes. Other common factors are being disbelieved, ignored or marginalized by family, friends and doctors. Thoughts about “ending it all” occur so frequently that she thinks every AA patient should be evaluated for suicide ideation.   

“I want to see what people's common denominator is, in talking to them about their suicidality. The goal is to get this study together and get it out to the medical community because they barely recognize AA, yet alone the suicidality their patients face,” she said.

“They need to treat their patients with AA in a way that gives them a desire to live. And get them the treatment team, the providers that they need in order to live fairly comfortable life, despite their pain.” 

Like many other AA patients, Haynes had trouble being believed. She suffered her initial back injury while working for the U.S. Postal Service in the 1970’s, but only recently did the federal government approve her workers’ compensation claim, even though her AA diagnosis and disability happened a long time ago. The Massachusetts woman is now getting appropriate treatment and pain medication.        

To learn more about Haynes’ study and/or make a donation to her research, visit her GoFundMe page.