By Wendy Cooper, Guest Columnist

I am a pain patient and diabetic entering my second week of detox.  My doctor will no longer prescribe methadone because he’s afraid of being targeted by the DEA for not following the “voluntary” CDC guideline.  He said they are putting doctors in prison by the hundreds and it’s just no longer worth the risk. 

I was on methadone for years.  I am also a gastric bypass patient, so I will not be able to take any type of NSAID (non-steroidal anti-inflammatory drug) for pain. 

When my doctor first suggested methadone I was totally confused.  I told him, “But wait, that’s for drug addicts.”  Well it is, but it’s also very effective for pain control.  After taking it for a month I was so happy.  It totally handled my pain and I didn’t have all of the other side effects, like making me sleepy and lethargic.  My mind was clear. I had my life back.  Yes, for many methadone works.  Sadly, it used to work for me, too.  

I am now back on insulin every day due to the pain, after having been off of insulin for years. Methadone did that.  It started the ball rolling in a positive direction. I was able to exercise more and take care of my family, because the pain relief helped get my diabetes under control. Not anymore. 

Supposedly the danger is because methadone, which has been around for over 50 years, has an effect on the respiratory system.  Well, this is true of many medications if they are not taken correctly.  If I take too much of my insulin, it will have an effect on my respiratory system too — as in me not breathing at all because I will be dead. 

Tons of medications have dangerous side effects if not taken properly.  What used to happen is you would weigh the benefits and the risks with your physician and then the patient would make an informed decision. 

Why does the government have the right to take away medication that has changed my life for the better?  Why am I being treated like a child by assuming I will not take my medication correctly?  I can’t think of any valid reason for this except MONEY.  Methadone is $35 per month, while buprenorphine (Suboxone) is close to $300. 

Buprenorphine is not a good fit for pain patients.  We are much more likely to go to the emergency room for an acute event than non-pain patients.  What will they give us for pain? 

It’s my understanding that pain medications are complicated when you are facing surgeries while on buprenorphine.  I have four surgeries scheduled this year.  Am I supposed to wean myself every time I get ready for one of my surgeries? 

I always felt safer from any type of addiction issue because methadone took away the “feel good” effects of Percocet.  If I hurt myself, I could take a Percocet and it would help with the additional pain. 

I don’t have an addiction problem, but like most pain patients I am concerned about developing one. I’ve always felt it is my responsibility to take precautions and govern myself with my own guidelines.  Well, that benefit is gone.  I don’t want to live anymore. This is inhumane. 

Wendy Cooper lives in Florida.

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