“Configurations of Mourning”

By Angelika Byczkowski

I mourn

Passion confined,

Freedom now curtailed,

Crammed into an angry knot.

No regrets for having lived to excess.

Desire's wide and glorious arc,

Stunted and diminished,

Trapped inside

My pain.
 

I mourn Desire's wide and glorious arc,

Passion confined, Stunted and diminished,

Freedom now curtailed, Trapped inside

My pain. Crammed into an angry knot.

No regrets for having lived to excess.
 

I mourn My pain.

Passion confined, Trapped inside,

Freedom now curtailed, Stunted and diminished

Desire's wide and glorious arc, Crammed into an angry knot.

No regrets for having lived to excess.
 

My pain,

I mourn

Trapped inside

Passion confined,

Stunted and diminished,

Freedom now curtailed,

Desire's wide and glorious arc,

Crammed into an angry knot.

No regrets for having lived to excess.

Angelika Byczkowski suffers from Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (EDS) and fibromyalgia. Until she was disabled by progressive pain and fatigue, Angelika was a high tech IT maven at Apple and Yahoo. She lives in California’s Santa Cruz Mountains with her husband and various 4-legged kids.

When pain isn't keeping her flat on her back, she spends her limited energy researching and writing about chronic pain, EDS, and fibromyalgia at EDS Info. Angelika’s essays and poems have been published in The New York Times and several healthcare blogs.

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